Gina's Journals

Pest

I don't know exactly what it was that first sent up the red flag about a married couple that wanted to befriend us. Was it the inappropriate comments that were clearly bigoted? Was it the annoying screeching voice? Was it the desperate need to get together? Was it the expectation of a favor from a mutual acquaintance without the desire to reciprocate?

Or was is the blatant attitude of wanting to get waaaaay toooo cloose?

Friends, I am not a best friends kind of person. I can stand to be alone. I've had to be alone. I and myself have had some of the best conversations I have ever been a party to.

So when I am confronted with a person or persons who are clingy, I instinctively pull back. You see, I know who I am. Took me awhile to get here but I am here to stay.

So when a childish, immature person or persons wish for my undivided attention to the point that I can't make or speak of plans with other friends without the possibility of hurting said person's feelings, I get ticked off. You want to make plans with your friends in front of me, I could give a damn. It doesn't concern me, I can do something else either with my husband or by myself. I can entertain myself for hours, I've had years of practice doing it (comes from being an only child.)

So now I feel stifled and I am no good at being stifled. I don't like the prospect of looking at someone's pitiful, pouting face because I choose not to invite them along. Here's a clue, just because two people like to do the same thing, doesn't mean they have to do it together!

And it's infuriating because said person or persons want to be included not because they like what I am interested in - on more than one occasion I got very blatant comments to the contrary - but because they are soooo lonely. Well, loneliness is a part of life and a large indicator of how alone you will be has to do with your personality in a group. To put it frankly, if someone acts childish and immature then adults (unless they also are childish and immature) will not want to be your friends. It is not age appropriate to pout and throw a tantrum when you don't get your way.

But, the people I am speaking of are dense as bricks. So reasoning doesn't work, all the more irritating. So I say this to my mother, MOM I have been nice. Please don't be ashamed of me for the ugliness I am about to unleash. Look the other way, dear God, look the other way.

I hate it when I have to unleash the inner bitch, but here it goes.

YOU STUPID SOBs. LET ME MAKE THIS CRYSTAL CLEAR. I AM NOT YOUR PAL, YOUR FRIEND, YOUR CONFIDANTE, OR ANYTHING ELSE. I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. YOUR COMMMENTS ON "ORGY AT GINA AND JOE'S HOUSE" FOLLOWED BY "THE ONLY REASON MY HUSBAND WANTS TO GO TO LAS VEGAS IS THAT PROSTITUTION IS LEGAL" ALONG WITH MENTIONS OF YOUR HUSBAND'S NUDITY ARE INAPPROPRIATE AND CREEPY. FUCK YOU AND YOUR "EVERYBODY THINKS IT" ATTITUDE. I DON'T WANT TO FUCK YOUR HUSBAND AND MY HUSBAND WOULDN'T FUCK YOU WITH A KOALA'S DICK. IF THAT IS WHAT YOU WANT, GO TO A SWINGER'S SITE. I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU WANT TO DO, JUST DON'T TRY TO INCLUDE US IN IT. I THOUGHT I COULD HAVE AN ADULT CONVERSATION WITH YOU, I NOW SEE THAT IS POINTLESS. WHEN YOU WANT TO DRAG OTHER PEOPLE IN TO MAKE US BE YOUR FRIENDS, IT'S TIME TO LEAVE. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. IF WE ARE YOUR ONLY FRIENDS, THEN I GUESS YOU HAVE NONE.

Posted by gmwood at August 21, 2005 11:27 PM